Not much to report today but I thought I would write about my latest parenting thoughts.
I have been struggling with my style of parenting as of late and I find it really hard to balance my Christian beliefs with my strong feelings for not using hitting as a discipline tool.

So I was sitting in the boys room while Luke was falling a sleep and I usually pray, in my head, for them while I am in there waiting, and while I was praying something, meaning of course God, spoke to me. He just reminded me that the whole point of everything is to love one another, and it struck me that alot of the time that message might not get translated to our treatment of those closest to us and kids especially. I mean, we have to be responsible for how they turn out as a person, and I feel that really weighs on me at times and makes me want to really get rid of the things that make me uncomfortable, like the tantrums and aggression. So when I am faced with this kind of behavior it makes me feel really angry and I have a hard time not reaching for those tools that seem, in the moment, what will get the behavior to stop. All this made me come to a personal conclusion, I need to parent from a place of love not anger, to be proactive not reactive. So instead of waiting for bad behavior I want to give my kids my attention and love a lot more so that hopefully when the bad times do come, because I have no delusions that they won't, I will be more connected to them and know why they are having the hard time, and hopefully be patient enough to work through it. I mean if a friend called and needed to vent some frustration, I would not yell at her and tell her to get over it. Anyway, I just feel like I am coming back to where I want to be, and that is a place of love for everyone, especially my Kids!